one day to judgement

For those of you who have been keeping track of my nicks on MSN, you should realise that I'm actually counting down to something ominous. Namely the day of my results, which is tomorrow.

Apparently, my current state of mind leaves me unable to enjoy a day off today (it's the promotion excercise, so I don't have to attend school) And some have heard me say this countless times, but for those who haven't, I'll say it again. "I should get my ass out of the house, lest I stay at home and worry myself to death.

And so once again, what happened earlier this year repeats itself. I feel exactly like I did on the day before receiving my 'O' Level results. The anxiety and all that. And just like that actual day, tomorrow could be the be-all or the end-all for me (more chances it'll be the latter though) In such cases, wouldn't you just wish you'd die before that day? Just hoping a bolt of lightning or a crazed murderer would care to accomodate my requests.

It's gonna be difficult to get through this day without going to pieces, and even more difficult for me to maintain my composure tomorrow *sigh*

`S.B.S *nigeL -- 9:41 am